me vs. therapy

'how have you been?'

'alright. i’m slowly realizing that happiness lies in a positive outlook and in kindness and gratitude. i’m trying to cultivate those.'

'that’s a step in the right direction.'

'thanks. i’m also trying to find the joy in little things.'

'finding joy in moments is a cornerstone of happiness.'

'i found joy in the shower last night.'

‘let’s pretend you don’t want to tell me that story.’

‘but i did.’

‘i’m not asking you about your shower.’

'i composed a song and sang it to myself.’

‘that’s great.’

‘do you wanna hear it?’

'no.'

'i wash my belly with the soap, being clean is pretty dope.'

'angela.'

'there goes a bubble down the drain, that little cut on my foot is sure in pain.'

'angela.'

'i say my body, it is a castle. and irish spring really cleans my…'

'angela!'

'you don’t like it.'

'it’s literally burning my ears.'

'well, it’s not frank sinatra, but i thought it was snappy and it made me smile.'

'smiling is good, sharing everything that happens in your life isn’t always as good.'

'you’ll be humming it later.'

'no.'

'i think i might share too much. like, when i like someone…like really like them, i kind of go for it. i don’t really hold back what i’m thinking out of self-preservation. what do you think?'

'i think you’re right.'

'well, how do i stop doing it.'

'stop doing it.'

'ok, so that’s obvious. but how? i don’t even know when i’m doing it.'

'maybe if you’ve been dating someone a month, asking them home for christmas in july isn’t a great idea.'

'i don’t do that.'

Look over at Satan, Satan looks down at feet, starts whistling.

Look back at therapist, therapist says: ‘really?’

‘ok, well maybe i did that once.’

‘if you don’t know when you’re doing in, then maybe you need to sit with a thought for a while before you put it out there. maybe poll your friends, think how you would feel if you were in the other person’s shoes….’

‘i’d run. like a fucking gazelle with a herd of cheetahs on my ass.’

‘cheetahs don’t hunt in herds.’

‘yeah, but you smell what i’m stepping in.’

‘no, not really. thanks to the irish spring.’

‘you did like my song!’

‘no’

‘i’ll try not to be so eager in the future.’

‘it’s not that, angela. eager is great, hope is wonderful. what you have to learn is how to pace yourself. don’t strangle the flowers in your garden before they have a chance to open.’

‘that makes sense. i’ll try really hard.’

‘I’m proud of you.’

‘for what?’

‘trying to find gratitude and being positive.’

‘thanks. it’s hard some days.’

‘yes, it is. but it’s worth it. and one more thing.’

‘yeah.’

‘keep singing in the shower.’